Beginning the Third Trimester
So as of Friday, tomorrow, I begin my third trimester....It is a weird thought that I am two thirds of the way through. One that brings to the fore a variety of emotions.
First, there is a rising sense of panic about all of the things that are left to do. We are wildly researching all of the various gear we need. Organizing and decorating the nursery. Getting ready to take various baby- or birth-related classes and so on. There is a lot to get done and not a lot of time left. But it will happen. I just hope it can happen before my belly gets so huge that all I want to do is sit all day. :-)
Second, I have this feeling of nostalgia as my pregnancy begins the last chapter. Whilst there have been ups and downs, some pain, some scary moments, and definitely discomforts, so far, I really haven't minded being pregnant. There is part of me that is waiting for the other shoe to drop and my suddenly feeling miserable and ready for it to be over. That feeling, of course, could be around the corner now that the second trimester is just about over. But I am optimistic that things will continue to putter along as my belly grows and my body adjusts. Having my baby boy undulating my stomach in an ever increasing amount is exciting - he is really becoming a companion - and this leads me to the third feeling....
Third, I have this growing sense of excitement about meeting this little being. I have been excited before. But the increasing activity and very physical manifestation of his presence - the huge bulge he creates in my stomach when he turns over or stretches - makes his impending arrival all the more real. Whilst there is a sense of trepidation about how life will change forever, that feeling is mostly overwhelmed by an increasing sense of joy and anticipation of bringing this new life into the world. Recently we have had an opportunity to spend a fair amount of time with various friends who have just had babies in the last 6 weeks. At first I felt intimidated by the dependency, the sense that life changes completely. But the more time we have spent with friends, the more I have come to realize that whilst life is changed forever, it is manageable and, more importantly, it is clear how wonderful it is. The sense of love overshadows everything else. Those are the things that I choose to focus on as Dan and I enter this final phase of what has been an incredible journey.
First, there is a rising sense of panic about all of the things that are left to do. We are wildly researching all of the various gear we need. Organizing and decorating the nursery. Getting ready to take various baby- or birth-related classes and so on. There is a lot to get done and not a lot of time left. But it will happen. I just hope it can happen before my belly gets so huge that all I want to do is sit all day. :-)
Second, I have this feeling of nostalgia as my pregnancy begins the last chapter. Whilst there have been ups and downs, some pain, some scary moments, and definitely discomforts, so far, I really haven't minded being pregnant. There is part of me that is waiting for the other shoe to drop and my suddenly feeling miserable and ready for it to be over. That feeling, of course, could be around the corner now that the second trimester is just about over. But I am optimistic that things will continue to putter along as my belly grows and my body adjusts. Having my baby boy undulating my stomach in an ever increasing amount is exciting - he is really becoming a companion - and this leads me to the third feeling....
Third, I have this growing sense of excitement about meeting this little being. I have been excited before. But the increasing activity and very physical manifestation of his presence - the huge bulge he creates in my stomach when he turns over or stretches - makes his impending arrival all the more real. Whilst there is a sense of trepidation about how life will change forever, that feeling is mostly overwhelmed by an increasing sense of joy and anticipation of bringing this new life into the world. Recently we have had an opportunity to spend a fair amount of time with various friends who have just had babies in the last 6 weeks. At first I felt intimidated by the dependency, the sense that life changes completely. But the more time we have spent with friends, the more I have come to realize that whilst life is changed forever, it is manageable and, more importantly, it is clear how wonderful it is. The sense of love overshadows everything else. Those are the things that I choose to focus on as Dan and I enter this final phase of what has been an incredible journey.
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