The Belly is Getting Big

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So the "Belly" is definitely growing. I still feel pretty good all things considered. Not quite ready to have the babe yet - still lots of things on the list. But I am realizing that I have no control over the situation and just have to go with the flow, so to speak. :-) This is not an easy state for me. So the last couple of days have had their ups and downs. When I went to the doctor on Tuesday - 5/23/06 - she said that I was about 80% effaced and 1 cm dilated. So I have progressed further and a little faster than I thought. This was a big part of the reason that I really realized how little control I had over the situation. :-) Of course, I could stay this way for a while. Or not. But I now feel completely paranoid about whether I will recognize going in to labor. There is the intellectual side that does realize that nature will let me know. But there is the irrational side that imagines nightmare scenarios of having an emergency birth at home, during the day, when Dan is downtown at work and an hour away. Of course, him being an hour away generally freaks me out if I go in to labor during the day. However, we have some very supportive neighbors-friends who have offered to drive me if need be. So I shouldn't worry on this front. But it is easier said than done when ones nesting instincts and emotions are running amok. :-) Oh well....the lesson is to just go with it and take things as they come. I do feel pretty (with the stress on pretty) confident that we will be able to handle anything that comes. We will see. :-) Ah, the wonderful ride of life! :-)